With so many of my friends giving birth so soon I am really getting nervous. My count down says 51 days but I am sure it will be before then. I am not so scared of the pain of giving birth...although I know it is going to hurt like HELL...I have pretty much resigned myself to the pain and decided that it is what my body is made for so I should be able to survive...right? Anyway, what scares me the most is this whole MOM thing. Sometimes I am a little dorky and do things that are completely blond and...what if I do something like that with Gunnar? This is the most important thing that I will do in my entire life and what if I totally screw it up? My sister says that it is not as hard as you think and that once he gets here your instincts kick in and take over. I really hope that is true. I didn't have the best roll model when I was growing up so hopefully my instincts are stronger then that.
On a different note my next doctors appointment is on the 20th and my doctor has scheduled another ultrasound because he is a bit worried at how big Gunnar is. I have measured three weeks ahead of where I should be for the last three months and so my doc wants to see exactly how big Gunnar is. What he will do with that information I am not sure. What if he is going to be 10lbs? Holy SHIT! Oh well, one good thing is that I get to see him again and hopefully we will get some new pictures. YES!! If we do get some pics I will post them so you all can see how handsome he is!
I have also been working on some new projects and am almost finished with one of them so I will post some pictures as soon as I finish them so you can check them out. They are super cute.
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uh oh whit - what if you give birth to a toddler?? heh heh, j/k - maybe they just got your due date wrong and you're actually closer than you think! which...probably doesn't help you freak out any less....i didn't really think that through, did i?
anyways, don't stress too much. everyone (myself included, heh heh) is totally freaked out about being a mom for the first time...well at least they should be - it's kind of a big deal! but you are going to be just fine. we can do this :)
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