Sometimes I am overwhelmed at the range of emotions you feel when you are pregnant. Sometimes life is so great...especially now that I am pregnant...but at the same time life can be really shitty for the same reasons.

1. Back Pain: Oh my god...I thought my back hurt after a long day at work before. Now that Gunnar is HUGE my back is killing me. My boobs are getting bigger FINALLY...which by the way is awesome especially when the ones you have had all your life are almost nonexistent...you just have to deal with the back ache all the time.

2. Mood Swings: One second I am completely fine and my day is going great and all it takes is a look or a tone of voice...even if the other person is not aware of it...it doesn't matter all that happiness goes out the window and I am replaced with super bitch. After that there is no turning back.

3. Heart Burn: For GODS Sakes...where did that come from. I swear I could look at a piece of food and get heart burn. It doesn't matter if the food is and acidic one or not...I get heart burn regardless. Fruit, cheese, chocolate, soup, just about anything. It is particularly annoying when you wake up with the burning in your throat at about 2:oo in the morning, knowing that you have to be up at 4:30 to go to work. The only thing that helps is water, milk, and tums. I should by stock in tums...I would be a millionaire.

4. Peeing every FIVE seconds: how annoying...every time you take a step or sit down and stand up again you feel like you are going to pee your pants. Then you try to hold it because you seriously went only five minutes ago and it gets seriously UNCOMFORTABLE. When you finally do go you get...trickle, trickle, trickle. Are you fucking kidding me? All of that for two seconds of peeing. Give me a break.

5. Worrying: With everything that I am experiencing now there is a lot to worry about. With every little twitch, pain, movement or lack there of, and new occurrence I worry. I feel him move and he instantly has my attention. I don't feel him move when I am used to and he instantly has my attention. I feel a twinge or sharp pain anywhere in my stomach and instantly I am thinking, "What in the HELL does that mean?" Most of the time I want to call my Doctor with all these little questions but I also want to avoid the, "Oh...this is her first one." statement. Like all of the questions that I have are stupid and if I new anything I wouldn't be asking it. What the FUCK! Honestly.

Pregnancy is an awesome experience...truly eye opening. Not only do you learn a lot about life...a lot about yourself...and a lot of stuff about your body that you would rather have not known. LOL. Seriously...I wouldn't trade little Gunnar for any of these things or more. He is truly now my life...so I better get used to all the trouble he comes with. He is a Tamez after all.

Here is Octobers sketch. I did this layout quite a while ago and when I revisited my layouts and saw it again I wanted to share it all with you. I love the contrasting colors, the involvement, but also it's simplicity in design. Try it out and see what you come up with.

These are some photos of my new kitchen. It was originally a blue color but we changed it to the red to match the counter tops a little better. I think it looks more "homey" also. As you can see we don't have any of the trim, crown molding, or flooring in yet but we will soon. Both the trim and crown molding are going to be white and the flooring is a vinyl that looks kinda like vintage wood. I am really excited to have it finished. It is like a brand new home with just the kitchen done. It is amazing how much difference it makes. The cabinets are a natural maple finish with all the grain showing. We really like them...they cost around 3600 dollars but they were well worth it. We also got a new stove, fridge, and kitchen table. I just love them.

Here is what I am working on right now. A mini book titled "Waiting for you". It will go month by month and what I felt during that time. The front and back cover are chipboard covered with cork and the inside pages are covered in felt and blanket stitched around the edges. So far all I have completed is the front and back cover and one inner page covered with felt. I think it is turning out super cute and can't wait to get it finished.

Sometimes when you have not had a family yet and you scrapbook you find you feel like you have run out of things to scrapbook about and everything you do scrapbook feels redundant. Now...it has all changed...I feel like I have a purpose again. A scrapbooking purpose. To remember every feeling, every thought, and every thing that happens during this time. You only have your first child once. I hope to be able to document them all.